Tuesday, 18 May 2010


At times I feel like a traitor for not displaying how my parents have raised me.

I'm so proud of my siblings, although I'm the eldest I really wish I was more like them.

I tell myself that it isn't my fault, it's my surroundings... but shouldn't my personality be strong enough to withstand all the crap I go through?


  1. Some children are different .. I would say you are one of them..At times I feel the same when I am wrong but then the same question arises that am I not strong enough to withstand all that I am doing!! I am still unable to fix my self with that!!

  2. I don't really think there's much to fix, as you said some children are different,

    we can't change that however the best solution is to realize where we're going wrong, stop, think and then act in a way that we won't regret later on.

    My problem is realizing the fact that what im doing is wrong... ahh its so frustrating knowing but not being able to do something about it.

  3. its not that it should be

    its that it COULD be

  4. I never thought about it that way, thanks for pointing that out.

    Yes, why do I assume that it must be this strong?

    Probably because of all what I have gone through, but yet maybe each situation is handled with a different type of strength.