Wednesday, 28 July 2010


Whats interesting about life is its ups and downs,

It doesn't take days, hours or even minutes,

In just a couple of seconds one can be happy or sad,

I want to get a point across,

Bs I'm having a bit of trouble explaining,

So bare with me....

As it takes just seconds to be in one mood or another,

Why do we always end up dwelling in a phase which consists of depression,



and regret?

Why don't happy moments last for that long?

Or why don't we feel them,

perceive them,

and most of all comprehend them?

In my opinion and probably yours,

Because its easier to be in pain than look for happiness which may not even exist,

Its easier to cry than smile,

It takes one bad memory to initiate a stream of tears,

But to get to laugh, sincerely, from your heart... what does that take?

A lot.

I wish one day,




Reach a point where we do more than just realise and conclude,

Reach a point where we choose to live those happy moments,

Where we cherish them,

Extend them beyond those sad moments in life.

Tuesday, 27 July 2010


Its weird,

not my usual kind of music,

bs me likes,

very soothing when sad.

Sunday, 25 July 2010


I hate having this feeling,

Where theres a lump in my throat,

I want to let go of those tears,

But their cause is so lame,

It will only make me look down on myself more.

Tuesday, 20 July 2010


It's hard trying to change they way you've been living for the past two decades,

but being hard doesn't necessarily mean being impossible, does it?

Something clicked today, I can't waste my last chance at getting a decent future.

I want to change everything,

I'm going to be more dedicated to my studies,

I'm going to care about my health,

I will not carry one wanting without actually doing something about it.

I will challenge myself.

Sunday, 18 July 2010


Im breaking down, those tears finally found a way out.

Why don't you see?

Why don't you see ?

I try so hard to be what you want, I try and try and try and all you see is a failure.

I can't recognize my face, my soul, my heart, even my morals have vanished while trying so hard to get to where you want me to be.

Why can't you see the scares which haven't healed yet?

Don't you know I love you? I miss seeing you be proud of me, I miss the days were I could make you happy.... but most of all I miss me.

You turned me into your worst nightmare, and yet you can not see!


One of the things in life that truly and sincerely pisses me off is being deceiving, i.e.

deceivingpresent participle of de·ceive (Verb)

1. (of a person) Cause (someone) to believe something that is not true, typically in order to gain some personal advantage.

but what really gets to me, even more than the later, is the fact that most people are Naïve...

Naïve to the point they trust those deceiving low lives and blame you for being such an open bitch about your own fucking life.....

P.s. to myself :- LEARN TO LIE

Friday, 9 July 2010


i'll probably get bored from this theme,
but for the moment me likey :$...

anyone else likey ?

Monday, 5 July 2010


When waiting for a result, either it be the result of an exam, a decision or so on; don't you ever feel that you know what the result is deep deep deep inside?

At times this thought wonders through my my mind, the thought of knowing everything if only i had the guts to accept what I know and not wait for it to happen, ista'3feralla it sounds wrong, but its just a thought...

Does anyone feel the same way?