Wednesday, 12 December 2012


Going over the same mistakes I keep making everytime,
Going over the same pain I bring upon myself,
Going over the same guilt I feel with every one of those mistakes,
Going over the same talk I give myself about quitting,
Going over the same people I get involved with,
Going over the same change I want to happen,
Going over and over and over...

If only it had stopped after that first time.

It's so hard... doing what's right.

But keeping up with this life is going to be the end of me.

~Dennis Miller 

Tuesday, 30 October 2012


Stuck again,
Lost in thoughts,
Bottled up emotions,
Yet numb...


Pleasing others?

Pleasing myself?

Blurred vision,

Crying soul,


I can't even connect my thoughts.

Doing what I want at this moment means hurting everyone around me,
Breaking hearts,
Losing friends...

I want to be alone.

Tuesday, 7 August 2012


I can go on for pages trying to portray whats going on in my mind,

But nothing will explain it as good as these two words,

It hurts.

My heart has been broken one time too many.

Saturday, 7 July 2012

They're making me hate them,

Its breaking my heart,

The last people I need to hate is them,

Nothing is going right,

I want to run away and keep to myself forever,

No one deserves keeping up with this shit,

Why can't they understand, people change...

I feel like stabbing my ears with a knife,

Thats how much I don't want to listen,

Leave me alone.

Tuesday, 3 July 2012


Someone please explain why suddenly everyone knows everything,

Especially in regards to whats going on with the world now a days,

I believe the reason behind this mess is exactly those people,

Everyone throwing in an opinion,

Giving out false advice,

And spreading rumours!

 Will you please keep shut?

Monday, 21 May 2012

no salfa

I don't feel right.

I'm not getting along with "me" at the moment,

If that makes sense ;/

I'm the type of person who keeps things to the last minute,

However I'd always get them done,

And most times no one could tell I did it "7azat il 7aza"...

But now... I'm losing that ability!!
And it feels frustrating,

I don't have enough time to get things done,

I end up not doing my best,

Then feeling bad becauce I know I'm capable of doing way more,

I know this needs to change...

But I can't change something I've grown with over night...


I neeeeeeed a break !

I want to do something crazy,

The craziest thing I could think of was dying my hair,

Then I fell into a dilemma with which colour I should go for:S

Ma 3ndy salfa :)