Wednesday, 29 February 2012


Dead tired, long day at uni, got loads of assignments due in the next couple of days... "plz t3alay m3ay meshtahya il ma63am il flany"... and I'd go

In the middle of a dream, sleeping after having pulled an rings "umbain shftay shsawa flan, ana adry ga3d y5oony bs..." *another hour of her reasoning to why she should stay with this mother fucking bastard* ... still I'm on the line listening

"dgeega wadeg 3alaich"... *3 hours later*... I still wait

I have a day off and plan to spend it doing work..."Mo fahma hal part mn il wajeb"... I go to uni and end up spending my day off helping someone with something I haven't finished myself

Finished uni at 7 after a long practical, she ends up crying and when I try to comfort her she asks me to leave... I still stay till 10 telling her why she shouldn't be crying

Doesn't speak to me for 4 months, asks to see me ... I show up

But when I need someone... no ones ever there for me.

Sunday, 19 February 2012


I shouldn't be crying but I can't hold them back,

One of the worst things ever is when ur misunderstood,

When someone sees you as complete whore,

And a person who lacks confidence and character,

For a split second it gets you thinking,

Am I really that?

Why was it so painful reading those words,

When I know I didn't do anything wrong,

When I know that someone is nothing but a delusional kid,

Why was I too scared to reply...

I hate being this way,

I'm not weak,

But I keep choosing to be.

Wednesday, 15 February 2012


I just hate having classes till 6,

And today it was worse,

I had to sit there for another 2 hours trying to cheer someone up ;/

I barely know how to cheer myself up,

Yet convince people that their life is ok and they should be happy...

Man did I do some big time!!

Pleaaaaaaaaaaaaaase saturday pllllllllllllleeeeeeeease come quick !!

I want to lay in bed all day doing nothing,

Not thinking about anything!

Just starring at the ceiling... *sigh*

Wednesday, 1 February 2012

you won't break me

you won't break me

you won't break me

I didn't come this far to give up now, it took me two years to change my mentality, I won't relapse because you lack faith in me, I'm going to succeed at your hardest task, THEN IM GOING TO FUCKING RUB IT IN YOUR FACE

"I owe my success to having listened respectfully to the very best advice, and then going away and doing the exact opposite."

~ G. K. Chesterton